Unemployment is the third worst feeling I’ve ever had. Loss, inadequacy, insecurity, anxiety; all rolled into one.  Sometimes I get so discouraged and disappointed that I briefly lose control of myself.  In those ‘out-of-control’ moments I often find myself glued to the computer almost randomly applying for all the jobs that I can even remotely consider myself qualified to do.

A few weeks ago, I was rambling to my life coach, Jenny Ferry, about how these ‘out-of-control’ moments are taking over my life, and sapping all my energy and motivation.  We talked about how applying for jobs through the Careerbuilder, Idealist, Monster.com sites doesn’t really work .

We talked about how overwhelmed I am by the fact that I am FREAKING UNEMPLOYED.  During the conversation with Jenny (and other members of my support network), I am reminded that I am a successful, resourceful, extraordinary person. One day (soon I hope) my perseverance is going to pay off. I’ve done more networking, informational interviews, referral calls and emails in the past 6 months than I have in my entire life.   Some good must come from this, right?

I understand that our struggles and obstacles make us stronger and in situations like this, I need to keep on swimming, but I’m so tired of failing. I need something good to happen soon. In the meantime, I’ll try to keep control of myself and channel my energy into making more phone calls and sending more email to real people, not the robots behind the job boards.